YOLO? Is that what the cool kids are saying? Or maybe it’s so out of date the uncool kids are saying it. I don’t know. I just know that when someone passes away I’m reminded of how precious this life is and how quickly it can be taken from us.
I can eat right. I can exercise. I can be sober. I can not be a smoker. I can do all the things that make me a healthier person. I can’t control fate. I can’t control what might happen tomorrow. We are not promised another day.
Today the world lost a beautiful soul who beamed positive rays of freakin sunshine as if it were the only way he knew how to be. He was a beacon of light in a dark and sometimes scary world. I wasn’t close to him, but you would think I was based on how I’m feeling today. He was a facebook friend and we had a hundred mutual friends. Every single post he ever wrote was nothing but pure love and positivity. From the outpouring of love I’ve seen over the last few weeks from his friends I know just how amazing he was. It makes me so eternally grateful for this life.
Every day when I wake up I may not be thrilled at life right now. I may have doubts and fears of the future. I may miss my old life before things got hard. I miss my husband who lives 2500 miles away. But I never for a second feel like my life is bad. I’m grateful. Grateful for the sun rising. Grateful for another day on this Earth because it could be the last. Perspective is everything so why not live a little?
I spent a couple of days in Disney World and let go of a lot of stress that I’d been carrying for months. I didn’t eat right, and other than walking, I didn’t exercise. In fact, I have only been to the gym 5 times in a month. I don’t even care. I want to focus on living my life. No rules. No boundaries. No fear. NO FEAR.
For so long I thought I had to eat a certain way, weigh a certain number, or work out a certain number of times a week to feel like I was “doing it right.” What the hell is doing it right?
I’ll tell you what it is. Doing it right is living each day to the fullest. Never taking a single moment for granted regardless of how you hate your boss, how you fought with your spouse, how your kids are aggravating you, how you binged on donuts, or how you feel like you let yourself down today. Today is all we got. What if tomorrow you didn’t wake up? What if you were faced with a tragedy?
Yes, I still am eating well, and yes, I still enjoy exercising because it makes me feel good. If you don’t feel good, then find what makes you energized and feel alive. Maybe it’s playing sports, maybe it’s live music, maybe it’s cooking, maybe it’s wine, maybe it’s friends, maybe it’s playing with your kids, maybe it’s volunteering in the community, maybe it’s church, maybe it’s your passion at work. Just do it with no regret. Feel your emotions. Acknowledge them and know it’s ok to feel discouraged but move on and make each day as full as you can.
I know it’s been a rough year. It has been for almost every single person I know. I can’t say I disagree when I’m like “peace the fuck out, 2016.” I know this coming year will be difficult in its own way, but never take it for granted. Spread love wherever you go and not just because it’s the holidays, but because it feels good for you and the recipient. Hug your friends and family and tell them how much they mean to you. Never hold back because it might be your last chance.
Life is a precious thing and in a flash it could be over. Whether you live to 100 or not, “life moves pretty fast and if you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.”
Hey, and if you made it all the way to the end of this post, I LOVE YOU. Spread some positive energy and love today and everyday. Go hug your kids, dog, cat, spouse, or just give yourself some self love.
Hell, eat a cookie. It’s all good.