A Dose of Reality

Just when you think you are back on track…

I had another big milestone last month. 110 lbs lost total. I really had kicked it up a notch and was fighting for every ounce lost. My head was in the game and I was feeling so good about my choices. I was going to exercise classes, eating clean, and my energy was high. By the end of June I had slacked a little and gained a couple of lbs back. No big deal. I can still get to my summer time goal before my big road trip in mid July. Some more less than ideal choices and I had gained 5 lbs back. Ouch.

I know. It doesn’t diminish the fact that I’ve lost 105 lbs. I am still a success. I just know how hard every single pound is to lose from this point on. My metabolism is slow as molasses. I injured my shoulder about a month ago and haven’t lifted weights since. I was getting back on track last week and went to the gym five days. Even though the weight wasn’t coming off I was still feeling pretty good.

Flash forward to 2 days ago. I fell down some stairs and fractured my tailbone.

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ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME??? I am leaving in 3 days for a 36 hour road trip to Washington. That’s a lot of time in the car on a broken butt. The pain has been pretty bad and it’s just been 2.5 days. The worst part is there is really nothing I can do about it. I’ve rested it, iced it, gotten an inflatable donut pillow, taken meds, and tried to remain positive.

I’m pretty frustrated. We have been planning this trip since February. We didn’t have a honeymoon and now we are celebrating my birthday on this trip, so there is no way I’m not going. People think I’m ignorant, stupid, or stubborn for not canceling, but they don’t understand that I NEED this vacation. I’ve saved, sacrificed, and worked hard to make it a reality. Regardless of the discomfort I’m going to make this trip a memorable one.

So you’re saying I can’t work out for how long? OH SNAP. 8 week minimum recovery time and it may never quite feel normal again. I bruised it once as a kid 25 years ago too, so this is just the cherry on top of the shit sundae. It’s actually less painful when I’m up and walking as long as I’m not bending or twisting or getting up and down from sitting. That doesn’t bode well for any exercises I like to do other than walking…

Did I forget to mention that in 4 weeks I’m also having an unrelated surgery? yeah, AGAIN. I had this same surgery last summer and who knows how many more times over the course of my lifetime I will need it. It’s just a one day type of thing if they don’t find anything more pressing once I’m in there. There is a no exercise for 2 weeks after rule too. And I bloat and gain like a crazy person afterwards because of all the air they inflate into my abdomen to put the scope in. Siiiigh. I’m not looking forward to it. Precedence dictates that it will be fine and I’ll be back to normal in about 5 to 10 days.

The real thing that bothers me about all this is really not the lack of exercise as much as the stress that this all brings. My entire life I have coped with stress using food. As soon as I get bad news or feel the stress of some negativity, I want crap food.

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Before I even got injured I was eating things out of the ordinary for me. As soon as I found out my tailbone was fractured I went and got an ice cream from Sonic. I haven’t done that in 5 years!
I know. It’s ok. But I tend to let one bad decision lead to another and I don’t like the feeling that comes with being out of control. It’s like I got a flat tire and slashed the other 3 just because. I wanted to lose more weight before the trip because I always gain when I travel. As it turns out I’ve gained before the trip has even begun. Feeling sorry for myself will get me no where. I just have to realize that it’s ok to feel these emotions, but feeding my body junk just makes it worse. I feel worse, cause more inflammation, slow healing time, and it emotionally makes me angry at myself. I can do better.

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I’ve slipped on my no dairy, no wheat, and no sugar for the last 2 weeks and I know this trip will lead to more similar choices, but I’m trying to balance my food choices. It’s a 10 day trip. 4 days in the car on the way up, 2.5 days camping there, and then the drive back. On all our other road trips in the past during my weight loss I’ve always brought healthy choices to lessen the likelihood of fast food debacles. If I can’t exercise for 2 months, I need to focus 100% on my eating choices. Of course I’m still going to indulge- it’s VACATION!

I put more effort into packing and prepping food for this trip than I have camping gear and clothes.

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Here’s the game plan:

  • I precooked a large batch of healthy dirty rice. It’s so easy. I used jalapeno chicken sausage instead of pork. I froze it in 2 large containers and will bring one and have one to come home to when the fridge is barren post vacation. Dirty Rice Recipe
  • justin made an amazing pastalaya too. Think jambalaya but made with noodles. I won’t be eating any of it though. It’s more for him and our friends (it has tomatoes, and I’m allergic, and a shit ton of pork)
  • I’m bringing a lentil salad. I know, I know… that’s not really road trip food and neither is dirty rice. These are more for when we are actually camping. It’s a lebanese spiced dish and it’s nutrient dense, filling and delicious. Lentil Salad Recipe
  • I’m making a bottle of green smoothie. My go to green drink x 4 to fill a large juice container. It’s kale, lemon, ginger, pineapple, parsley, chia and hemp seeds, and cucumber. It will only last the first 3 days before it gets “spicy.” I did it last year for our trip and it was a great way to feel refreshed and get my nutrients in when I eat stuff on the road.
  • Tortillas and bread with turkey and cheese (and good ole PB and J for standby)
  • Bacon and eggs for cooking on the camp stove

Snacks:

  • stinky boiled eggs
  • string cheese
  • homemade granola made from steel cut oats, walnuts, sunflower seeds, cashews, honey, raisins, and coconut oil. recipe here
  • celery and carrot sticks, cucumber slices and a big ole tub of hummus
  • homemade cranberry oatmeal muffins sweetened with applesauce and a touch of peanut butter (easy breakfast too)
  • Beef jerky
  • homemade larabars (dates, walnuts, apricots, goji berries, and lemon zest in a food processor and individually wrapped) recipe here
  • Kind bars (with nuts, fruits, and seeds)
  • apples, cuties, grapes, and dried fruit (apricots and a few fruit leathers *healthy fruit roll ups!
  • almonds
  • and as a special treat- teddy grahams!

I always go waaaay overboard on the food for trips, but it’s always worth it in the end! I’m eagerly anticipating this exciting adventure and regardless of how the obstacles are stacking up (thanks ovarian cyst rupture today), I’m certain this trip will be one for the books!

No matter what obstacles come my way this summer, I’m going to keep on this path because I’ve come too damn far to go back now. I may be feeling a little defeated, but it’s temporary and perspective is everything. It’s just a few pounds, and it’s most certainly not the end of the world. What’s life without a little cheese, ice cream, and deep fried deliciousness??

I may not get back to the gym until September, but I know that when I do it’ll be great and it gives me something to look forward to. Until then, I’m going to focus on giving my body what it needs to heal (including rest) and I will be back in the groove in no time!

Now I just need all your butt vibes and prayers as I’m NOT looking forward to the car ride!

It will all be worth it when i see this:

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